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the big picture…


its funny when you run into a song that says exactly what you need to hear.
that reinforces the lesson you’re currently learning about yourself
that commiserates with your heartbreak.
i remember hearing this album, “the taller you are, the shorter you get” by My Dad is Dead when i was little. you can listen to the whole thing online here.
my own dad (not dead) always had excellent music taste and this was one of his favorite albums to blast on sunday mornings.
anyway, “the big picture”—extremely relevant chorus…

I could spend my whole life
Thinking about what’s important to me
I could spend my whole life
Thinking about what matters to me
I could spend my whole life
Worrying about what’s going to happen to me
I could waste my whole life
Thinking about just what it is my life means

Sometimes what matters doesn’t really matter at all
Sometimes it doesn’t fit inside the big picture

Sometimes I need to be just where I am
Sometimes I need to know that right here is good enough
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so i finally got a new camera. mine got lost in the move and i never really had the capital to replace it. but now im about to go on a trip cross country with my dad, so fuckit. i got a nikon coolpix s8100 in GOLD cause im an ART ST*R.

so i drove to santa paula to visit my aunt and took a million pictures. what follows are most of my favorites but the entire album is on flickr to peruse.

california is a beautiful place, easy to take artsy snapshots of. however as i started taking pictures, i found myself especially attracted to how human life interacts with this paradise. california’s environment is an entirely forced state of nature. sure, agriculture thrives in a sunny climate, but this place is a desert. water is piped in, gardens are transplanted, bees are shipped in to pollinate fields of monoculture crops. its completely fake. no rain, a temperate mall climate.

this past semester, i haven’t been myself, ive been trying to force myself into a place i don’t want to be. and i think with a lot of these pictures, im thinking about people living places they shouldnt.
plastic mingling with plant life….


to me, the ideal manifestation of that idea of forced habitation, is the shopping cart. a human invention used to aid in consumerism. here in california, theyre often stolen and left in neighborhoods, overturned in gardens, crashed into palm trees. still working on editing these….

when i got to santa ana, we did it all. car show, vintage prop plane show at the airport, indie music fest where i saw REDD KROSS and a bunch of bullshit, and then drove home on the CA 1 along the coast line. here are a couple of my faves, the entire album is on flickflickflickr…..

tomorrow i leave.

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how am i not myself…?


i miss fireflies, i miss the rain…ill trade it all in for a plague of cicadas and floods in memphis (even though, not brought on by rains and perhaps that was tasteless…)
california’s not for me.
i mean, its 70 degrees and sunny all the time. i dont think im even allowed to self-identify as a blonde without “feeling home” in california…
but, i miss everybody, and i guess im just a southern girl at heart…
so! im transferring to memphis university!
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but first, my mom’s getting married!!
wedding party!!
my dear bestie turned model elle will be my date and we will be in attendance at Tio’s Tacos art garden!!
soon to be featured on Mtv cribs, HA…i didnt even know Mtv was still around…
anyhoo, wanna see what im wearing?

elie tahari dress. gold and sequins and snakeskin details
1996 flash-back with some coral steve madden sandals
mac lipstick in morange, new fave summer lip color, so ORANGE
agate slice and gold foil earrings from anthropologie pretty pretty
trying to do something simple and slick with my hair, gonna channel chloe sevigny pool-side with some push-back bangs.

i think all together it brings about an alexander mcqueen vibe.
DRESS UP!
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after the wedding, my dad is coming and driving with me cross country to nashville.
we’re gonna take a week or so hanging out in the desert, drinking date shakes, visiting canyons and parks and stuff.
ADVENTURE!
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it hasn’t all been misery out here.
since coming to california, i’ve collected 16 varieties of succulents and 3 cactus cuttings, including a cactus cutting stolen from joshua tree national park
i hope they acclimate well to tenn….
i never knew there were so many different shapes and colors of these. and some of them flower! and they just grow naturally around here, because california is certainly beautiful…


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and i finished a semester here at Cal State Fullerton! six transferrable credits, yayyy!
i saw this inspiring interview with the etsy success story dreamboat yokoo

“i just feel like theres no room to be mediocre, and its not because i have some kind of disorder its simply because i enjoy immensely being great

“i love being hardcore”

i try to keep things like that in mind. im kind of a lazy person, sometimes i forget that i want to be great.

totally crushed out!


oooooh morrissey…you charming man you
this video cracks me up, no way hes gonna let up on those flowers.
but i am digging his whole “elvis presley says give peace a chance” vibe
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speaking of booooys, my dear friend Jamie Felton is similarly boy crazy 4ever. she recently made a piece for her sculpture class highlighting those who loomed large in her romantic life. the installation is a collection of cactuses each bearing the name and date of a crush. the biggest cactus is Elliott Smith. there is also a recording of myself relating an epic break up story to jamie playing on the radio in the bottom right of the installation. the story and scene are at once sentimental and ridiculous, funny and heartbreaking. drama drama drama.
here is Jamies flikr with more installation shotz
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seeing jamies piece made me think about my own crushes growing up. i think some of them still resonate in my boy choices today. also im not sure why, but i had a lot of animated crushes….

donatello…the smart one
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the tin man…the sentamentalist
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drop dead fred…the goofy showboat/double sexy lisped accent
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luke perry…the brooding dreamboat/bad boy
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david duchovny…the geeky believer
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beck…the always and forever
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there are so so many more…im in love with love.